im not sick, im not insane

today felt like a good day, even though it was gloomy and overcast and filled with bad news. im my moms favorite now. shes still really upset about my selfish little prick of a brother. well i cant really hate him that much, he gave me some gi joes and this little AT-AT figure ive been trying to steal from him for weeks. but hes still an idiot.

ive been listening to Knives nonstop since i imported it to itunes. fernando said id hate the world if i listened to it but i dont hate the world, i actually feel kinda happy when i listen to it. i feel like ive rediscovered something in myself thats been lost since i stopped listening to Aiden. it makes me feel like myself again. i dunno, i cant seem to explain myself because im not sure what it is that was lost.

summer is coming up. i just want it to happen already! ahhh. i have a feeling im gonna fail english. my inclass was weak. i know my isearch will somehow be lackluster. my snippets wont go very well because my literary analysis skills suck. snppets=english final. im fucked. come summertime, im going to be relaxing and doing a whole lot of nothing. well except for hanging out with kevin and lizzay and stuff. i still havent been to kevins new house. hes been really busy lately with end of the year projects. i hate end of the year projects. and they all happen to be due around the same day. its like the teachers are conspiring against us. how lame.

i made a bet with my dumbass brother that id lose 15 lbs by the end of summer. now i wonder if i can actually do it. itd be nice not to have a flabby belly anymore. although i am very comfortable in my skin i think id be a little more comfortable if i didnt have a muffin top, yknow? i really should try to get healthier. so i have a summer goal now. another summer goal would be learning to cook. i play cooking mama very often and it makes me want to learn.

just 2 more weeks