i feel like ive disappeared

from the face of the earth.
so im in ensenada. bumming my internet off my tia ha. its very nice to get away from it all. im still kinda stressing though. about my friends. about how all the people i used to talk are just kinda aquantances(sp?) that i wave to in the hall and nothing more. its not their fault. its mine for disappearing. of course, i have the best boyfriend in the world to spend my time with, and the two coolest chicks to tell everything to(ahem, donna and lizzy) but i miss my fwiends! well, ana and sunny mostly.
yeah, i havent gotten over that -_-

we were the best of friends. and now i dunno what to talk about to keep her around during lunch. sometimes i pretend i dont care, but it still kills me a little when she goes to spend time with her other friends who are probably closer to her than i am now. i hate it. i wish i didnt care. but i do. and i hate how i cant get it off my mind, even though im on vacation. when we spend time together, its like im not really there. idk how to explain it. she hardly answers my texts, we hardly have stuff to talk about, and i hardly see her.

i sound like an annoying gf -_____-

i wish i didnt care, i wish i didnt care, i wish i didnt care.
and i wish she could see how this is affecting me



oh yeah, ensenadas pretty cool :3))